tried to write a journal entry without AI for the first time in like a year and kinda panicked

Ok this is gonna sound dumb but bear with me I write a lot for work, marketing/copy stuff mostly, and over the last ~14 months ive slid from "use AI to clean up my draft" to "use AI to make the draft" to honestly not really writing anything on my own anymore. like i hadnt put a complete thought on paper without a model in the loop for months. didnt even notice it happening tbh. last weekend i tried to write a journal entry. just for me, no audience. nothing fancy. sat there for like 20 minutes trying to remember how to start a sentence that didnt have a thesis at the front of it.